Distance

What can I say, in France I don't write much here, because I don't know what to write. Here in Estonia I feel so many different things at the same time that I just have to write it down.

I saw my relatives today. I don't feel connected to them anymore:S Haven't felt that for a long time already. Not only with relatives, but with friends too. It's like I'm distancing (if such a verb exists) myself from everybody. I feel weird. What the hell is wrong with me?

Life is confusing me. I cannot say that I'm not happy, because I am. But I don't understand anything anymore. What do I want from future? From myself? From life? Who do I want to be? Where do I want to live??? That's also a good question. Ah probably I'm anyways thinking too much about the future and not enough about the present.