Books

I have read many, many books lately. Most of them quite crap, but right now I'm reading a very good one. Of course, Russian literature has always belonged to my most favourite ones. This time Goncharov's "Oblomov" (not quite sure if it's like that in English as well..). I like books that make you react somehow, be it negative or positive, this time in a negative way. I'm reading the book and I'm constantly thinking, why the hell Oblomov is so.. uncapable of doing things - living. He doesn't know anything about the world, he stays at home and thinks all days while sleeping on the couch. Every morning he thinks - I have to write a letter today. But he won't. And so is with everything else. Well, in my opinion he has depression. This also makes you feel like you really want to do things but something stops you, but while you're unnable to do things this also causes depression and so it's sort of dead circle. So the only thing of course that might pull him out from this circle is... love. And in the beginning it works, but then slowly he turns to his old habits... And also ruins this relationship and the only way to start "living!. In Oblomov I see a person that I never, ever want to become...

But this is only one side of this book. The other side is the deep reflexions of Oblomov. And he really goes into depths with his thoughts and I like it. He thinks the same that I have thought so many times, like for example about love. Most of the time we just think we're in love, because it's something we really really want. But actually it's not true love, you just create yourself that kind of illusion in order to convince yourself that you won't stay alone. And if you mix those two kinds of love, then you'll be miserable later. It's really interesting to read.. it's not this naive kind of view on love and relationships that you find so too often in movies and books which I hate so much just because they're so immature.

So, anyways, I'm so bored and I feel like Oblomov. I sit at home or at the library, read or write or work and that's it. I want to have fun too! Otherwise I'll be like Oblomov very soon.