New start

I'm back in Tartu again. In a new appartement, otherwise everything's supposed to be more or less the same as last year.
Still, in reality it is not like that at all. Everything seems to be different. New place didn't have almost anything in the room, except for some peaces of furniture. I'm sharing an appartement with one of my best friends, but still it doesn't help. I feel like everybody seems to have their own rhythm of life, I don't have school or job. In fact, I have no idea, what does one have to do to get a normal job in Estonia??? I'm studying in university, I speak 2 languages very well, plus a little bit 2 other languages. Still not even McDonald's wants me.
Then I had one really nerve wrecking day at university and it was even a danger that they might throw me out because I might not have enough credits done after the second year. Luckily everything turned out to be okey. Now I will be on a 3rd year, but still won't manage to graduate, because it's not possible to make so many subjects in one year. Okey, maybe somehow it would be possible, but I don't plan to kill myself because of university. Especially when I have to run a big project during the whole year, plus other stuff.
Now about people. Friends. I think they have used to the fact that I'm not around and now they all seem to have disappeared somewhere, doing their own stuff, having their own lives. It's not easy to get in touch with them again. Specially when you've lost your mobile and you don't have many phone numbers in it:)
Also the lifestyle and the "estonian way of communication". One example: I had a meeting with a sponsor of our tobbacco documentary. I was expecting a terribly official meeting, because I have used to the french way of communication which has to be very very polite and you really have to watch what comes out of your mouth. And then comes a young friendly guy, treating me like an old buddy, making jokes, talking about himself, asking what do I do etc. And I didn't know how to be or what to say, in the end I got used to it, but in the beginning it was a bit weird.
Even with my own relatives I stay a bit distant. I should feel more free to go and visit them but I'm thinking all the time that maybe I'm disturbing them.
I really don't know how to behave or how to be.